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Now on to the post. So as I mentioned earlier today, I was having a hard time with deciding whether or not to test. I talked it over with hubby and he was ok with it. So I went to the store for some groceries and picked up a Clearblue Easy digital test. Now I was all set to wait until tomorrow to test. But when I got home I decided to bite the bullet and do it. I also told myself that if it ended up being negative I could rationalize that my urine must be diluted, because they say morning urine would have the highest concentration of HCG.
So I tested and tried not to stare at it while the hourglass flashed. I looked away to put something away and looked back and there is was. I would say it was easily less than a minute.
I could not believe it! I looked a couple more times to make sure I read it right. Then the tears came! And flowed freely!
I know the beta test is still 3 days away. But I think that I can be cautiously optimistic about this. And here is how I rationalize it.
With IVF #2, my 1st beta was 7. Only 7! So if I were to have tested 3 days before that I imagine the pregnancy test would have read “not pregnant.” Now I have read that the Clearblue Easy can detect levels of HCG of 25 or higher. So this has to be a good sign!
I will test again Friday morning before my beta, but like I said I am cautiously optimistic that this is our time! I have the tester sitting in front of me and still look at it from time to time to make sure I read it right. But the picture doesn’t lie. 🙂
I am very glad I tested. Obviously I got a great result so that helps me to be happy! But now I won’t spend the next couple of days being anxious about Friday! I will still be a little bit and even if the beta number is good, I will still be anxious until the next one and the next and then until the u/s. But I certainly feel better about it now!
Thanks for putting up with my craziness and thanks for reading!