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i tested . . . May 1, 2012

Filed under: IVF/FET Journey — nowandevermore @ 5:11 PM
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Now on to the post.  So as I mentioned earlier today, I was having a hard time with deciding whether or not to test.  I talked it over with hubby and he was ok with it.  So I went to the store for some groceries and picked up a Clearblue Easy digital test.  Now I was all set to wait until tomorrow to test.  But when I got home I decided to bite the bullet and do it.  I also told myself that if it ended up being negative I could rationalize that my urine must be diluted, because they say morning urine would have the highest concentration of HCG.

So I tested and tried not to stare at it while the hourglass flashed.  I looked away to put something away and looked back and there is was.  I would say it was easily less than a minute.

I could not believe it!  I looked a couple more times to make sure I read it right.  Then the tears came!  And flowed freely!

I know the beta test is still 3 days away.  But I think that I can be cautiously optimistic about this.  And here is how I rationalize it.

With IVF #2, my 1st beta was 7.  Only 7!  So if I were to have tested 3 days before that I imagine the pregnancy test would have read “not pregnant.”  Now I have read that the Clearblue Easy can detect levels of HCG of 25 or higher.  So this has to be a good sign!

I will test again Friday morning before my beta, but like I said I am cautiously optimistic that this is our time!  I have the tester sitting in front of me and still look at it from time to time to make sure I read it right.  But the picture doesn’t lie. 🙂

I am very glad I tested.  Obviously I got a great result so that helps me to be happy!  But now I won’t spend the next couple of days being anxious about Friday!  I will still be a little bit and even if the beta number is good, I will still be anxious until the next one and the next and then until the u/s.  But I certainly feel better about it now!

Thanks for putting up with my craziness and thanks for reading!


11 Responses to “i tested . . .”

  1. Congratulations! So excited for you!

  2. Lindsay480 Says:

    Just beautiful!!!! ❤

  3. storkchaser Says:

    Oh! I’m soooooo happy for you! Ugh I hate that little hourglass, but that word coming after is so beautiful. Congrats!

  4. Awesome! Congrats! I knew it! 🙂

  5. ttb2 Says:


  6. i decorated it for you but I can’t post it!

  7. Polly Says:

    I live in Nottingham, UK and read your blog first thing in the morning, when I arrive at work. I have been rooting for you and am now sitting here at my desk with a HUGE smile on my face. Well done!!!!!!!!!!

  8. ilovemacaroniart Says:

    YAY!! Congrats hon!

  9. Roxxroxx Says:

    VERY exciting times…! FIngers crossed for you!

  10. Lauren Says:

    God is so good! Praying those same results for all of us who are walking this journey. Blessings!

  11. Aiza Says:

    Congrats Mel!!! So excited for you! KMFX for beta on Friday 🙂

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