Ok, I can’t believe I haven’t posted in so long. I really thought I had posted at one month, but apparently not. Forgive me dear readers. I have a bit of catching up to do.
January 21 marked one month for our little guy. And yesterday marked 7 weeks. There are times when I still can’t believe he is actually here. hat we actually have a baby after the years, the procedures, everything we went through. Feels so blessed.
He brings such joy, but let me tell you, it is hard! Honestly I thought that I would so be able to handle a newborn and still keep the house up and some other stuff, like helping hubby with his business, etc. Was I wrong (naive)! I knew it would be time-consuming, I knew that sleep would be difficult to have, but I certainly did not know that I was not super woman. Ok I knew that, but I didn’t think it would be that hard. Before I go into more detail of how my days are, I want to give a shout out to those Mom’s of twins and those Moms who have more than one child to care for (husbands not included). I don’t know how you do it!
Most of my days consist of feeding the little guy and changing him. If I am lucky he will nap for a good 2-3 hours once or twice during the day. Ideally I would nap during this time, but my body/mind is not trained to do this and I really struggle with it. I cannot shut my brain off. I keep thinking of all the things I could be doing while I have my arms free. So that is what I do. I feel better when I get things done, but it does not help me not to feel tired.
Lately we have tried to do a last feeding around 9:30 or 10:30pm and then get the little guy to sleep. That has not worked at all. After one or 2 more feeds he usually falls asleep sometime between 12:30 and 1:30am. Then if I am lucky he sleeps for 3 hours. Then it is up to feed and back down for maybe and 1.5-2 hours.
I am still supplementing with formula, but less than I was before. The goal being to get enough of a breast milk stash in the fridge/freezer that I don’t have to supplement with formula anymore. It is a slow process, but I am down to 4-6 ozs of formula a day, with 2 ozs at certain feedings.
Needless to say I am overly sleep deprived. I knew I would be, but didn’t know how it would feel until I actually lived it.
And before anyone asks, I choose to handle the nights instead of having hubby take some of the duty. With his work, his hours vary so much. Last night he got home at 2am, some nights it is midnight, some days he works at noon with a luncheon or other days it is early evening. So in order to make it easier on him, I choose to do this. He sometimes stays up with me until I get the little guy to bed, but other nights when I expect it will take longer I send him to bed. I am not trying to be a hero or anything, but hubby can’t breastfeed. And that is what gets him to sleep. Not sure if a bottle with breast milk in it would work the same.
We had our one month appointment at the pediatrician on January 25th. He weighed 8 pounds 6 ounces and was 22 inches long. His head circumference was 36.5cm. Everything looked great and the doctor was pleased with his weight gain. I told him that I wanted to wean off the formula and he was ok with that. He just wanted to be sure that I was able to replace the formula with my milk. I think I have. I do have a scale at home so I weigh him everyday to make sure he is gaining.
As far as breastfeeding, it is going ok. I have used a nipple shield since the hospital. I would like to stop using it and have tried several times to get him to latch without it. It has worked twice, but it is a slow process. If it works great, if not, oh well. At least he is still getting breast milk. Also I have noticed from the beginning when I pump, the right breast does not produce much milk at all. I have read that this can be normal. The left one does great, but the right, not so much. So I don’t offer it to him very often. I know that is probably not a good thing to do, but he seems to get satisfied from the left and is not interested in the right. Maybe he knows that he doesn’t get much and prefers the left one, which can also happen. I do still pump both for what it’s worth. I can typically get a half an ounce from the right and get about 2-3 ounces from the left depending on the time of day.
We have been doing tummy time with him both on the mat on the floor and also on me as I lean back. He does great! He actually rolled over from front to back Feb 4th. he did this twice, but then when I got the video camera hasn’t done it since. We almost got him to do it again today.
Oh and he smiled at me on January 22. Babies typically smile in their sleep early on, but he was wide awake. I rubbed his chin and got a smile. Melted my heart!
Lately he has had a run of bad gas. He gets so much and it seems to make him so uncomfortable he cries/screams. I have been trying to figure out the best thing to use to sooth him. Mylicon, Little Tummies, Gripe water, bicycle legs, etc. My guess is it is the formula. So I have tried different ones of those. The latest we got yesterday was Gerber Soothe. So far not too bad, but it can take time to see a change. It could be colic as well. But I am hoping it isn’t that. Only time will tell.
Overall, I could not be happier to have him in our lives. We are truly blessed. There are days when I feel like I am at my wit’s end. I can’t get anything done, or he is crying so much because of the gas, that I cry because I can’t make it better. I feel helpless. Then there are days when I am just overly tired and wish I had a live-in nanny to help. But then this happens (see picture below) and all of those feelings go away and all that matters is that he is here and what t we went through was worth it all!
Here is another one from today. Grandma sent the onesie.
Thanks for reading!