Today I am 11 weeks along! There are times when I feel like time is moving slowly, which is not necessarily a bad thing and other times when I think, I can’t believe I am this far along already!
Yesterday and today I was thinking a lot about our journey. How May marked 3 years that we had been trying. We had decided to begin June 1, 2009 but May we were not really trying to avoid anything and I actually thought that I was pregnant. It was the 1st time ever that I was late and I thought, wow, we weren’t even trying. Obviously I wasn’t pregnant and had no idea that our journey would be down the road that it was, but here we are, 11 weeks pregnant.
Even though I will be technically 3 months along a week from now, we will wait to “tell the world” until I am 13 weeks or thereabouts. The doctor said that each trimester is 13 weeks, 2 days long. So I will wait until then. That will take us into the 1st week of July. I will probably make the announcement at the end of that week. It will be so nice to have it out there! Being able to talk about it openly with everyone! Not worrying about sucking in my stomach or trying to hide the baby bloated stomach around friends, etc. It doesn’t seem as far off as it once did. It is only just over 2 weeks away! YAY!!
So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about fetal Dopplers. Early on, I told myself that I would not get one. I didn’t need the added stress. By stress I mean, if I could not find the heartbeat, I would probably freak out that something was wrong. I had read about women doing that. Rushing to the ER because they could not find the heartbeat. Everything was of course ok. But I did not want to be one of those women.
Well, as time passed and as I was released from my RE, I started to think about it again. I knew I would have to wait a lot longer in between appointments with the OB. My once weekly appointments would become monthly. I knew I would suffer withdrawal from the lack of ultrasounds, but I wasn’t sure how I would feel about not even being able to hear the heartbeat more often.
So I started doing research. A little bit about me. I have never been am impulse shopper. Unless you count getting a candy bar at the checkout of the grocery store. When it comes to big or important purchases I do my homework. I ask around, I look at Consumer Reports, I read online reviews, etc. I don’t like jumping into anything. So I asked around about Dopplers (meaning my lady friends on Babycenter). I Googled different Dopplers, looked at the reviews and even watched a couple of YouTube videos.
So on Monday this week, I decided to bite the bullet. I ordered one from a place outside of Chicago. I told myself that I was not going to be crazy if I could not find the heartbeat right away and I was not going to do this everyday. Maybe once or twice a week in between my OB appointments to help me get through the waiting. At least until I start feeling the baby all the time.
Imagine my surprise when I got the Doppler yesterday! Woo Hoo!!! So I got it ready to use, read the instructions and went to it. I knew that I would probably hear several different things. I would probably pick up my own heartbeat right away and could even hear the placenta. And of course I did. I moved the probe around and finally thought I was picking up the heartbeat. At least that I what I told myself. The monitor showed the heart rate and it was faster than mine. I let hubby hear it and that was it. I looked online at some more videos and convinced myself, it was not the babies heartbeat I heard because it was in the wrong spot. The baby was probably not where I thought it was, yet. And I also read, having a full bladder might help. So Hubby left for work and I waited until my bladder was fuller and tried again.
After a few minutes, there it was! Very distinctive and obviously the baby. The heart rate was around 160-170bpm. It was so beautiful and I cried out of happiness. I told hubby when he got home and was going to show him the next day (today).
So this morning I tried again. I could pick it up here and there but not for an extended period of time. My bladder was not full, so I gave it some more time and drank some water. About an hour later I tried again. I wanted to be able to video tape it to send to my parents and to post a link here. This time I was successful. I found it pretty easy and had hubby come in and I also recorded it on the camera.
I feel good about the purchase. I am glad I got it. I will say, it isn’t for everyone. Like I said, I did not freak out when I could not find the heartbeat right away. I knew in my heart that the baby was ok, there was no reason to think otherwise. So I think that helped to keep me calm. And I think it will help me to not obsess and have to listen every day or several times a day. My goal is to do it no more than once or twice a week. I am still having a lot of nausea, so in a way that gives me some reassurance that everything is still ok. But I have been told that will probably be going away in the next couple of weeks. So maybe I will want to “check in” on the baby more often after that. I don’t know. But right now it felt so good to hear the heartbeat and not have to wait. I also emailed the video to my parents and called them and talked while they listened. They were so excited. So for that alone it was worth it. Just helps to keep making it real!
So if any of youmight be thinking of getting one, I would caution to be sure. Do your research and try to imagine how you would feel if you were unable to find the heartbeat. Would you freak out and have to run tot he doctor or ER every time? Ultimately it is a personal decision. As it was with me. I like to think I made the right one for me. I guess only time will tell. 🙂
Here is the video if you are interested. You will notice that it starts off slow. I was trying to get a good location and I think the baby may have been moving a bit which is why the heart rate appears to move up and down a bit. I paid $50 for this one, so it is not like the ones the doctors use. I take it for what it is. I knew it was the baby because the heart rate was a lot higher than mine.
Cravings – I haven’t talked much about cravings. I get them every now and then. Sometimes I will be sitting at my desk and imagine a taste in my mouth. If that makes sense. I guess it is more of a memory of a food I have had and I will think, that sounds really good. I haven’t had ferocious cravings too many times. But today I do! For some reason the thought of Chilli’s Skillet Queso sounds soooooo good. So I told hubby this morning (9:30am) that is what I wanted. Obviously they were not open then and he had a gig to go to, so he said if I still had the craving when he got back we could go to Chilli’s.
I haven’t been the one that when I needed something, I needed it at that moment. If that was the case, I was more than capable of going to get it myself. But I thought it would be nice to have a lunch out with the hubs. So I am patiently waiting for him to get home so we can go. Yes, I still want it!!!! I can taste it and my mouth is watering. I know it isn’t that healthy, but I can’t help it if that is what baby wants. 🙂
Thanks for reading!