Sorry it has been so long since I have posted. I can make excuses, but to be honest, I did not have much to say and what I did have to say was more along the lines of a pity party and didn’t feel like posting that.
So here we are into March already. The time sure is flying by. Let’s see what have I been up to the past week? Not a whole lot. Helping hubby with some of his work and also preparing myself for my 1st craft fair. I like to draw. I decided last fall to start a business ( of sorts). I draw portraits from photographs. Business has been kind of slow. Honestly I haven’t done a heck of a lot in marketing it. Life happens when you least expect it to. But I am ok with that as it is more of a hobby than anything.
So I signed up to participate in a craft fair this past Sunday. It seemed like a small crowd (around 100 people) although someone said they had over 300. A few people took cards. It was good experience for me, since I am a little bit of an introvert. It gave me a chance to get my feet wet with craft fairs. I need to look into a few more in the area.
At the craft fair, the first thing I hear as I am setting up . . . “oh you’re pregnant too?” Yes the 2 ladies with booths across from mine were both pregnant. One looking like she had about a month to go and the other was 20 weeks (I overheard). Nothing against them, but man it just added to all the pregnant women I seem to be seeing lately. (This is my pity party reason for not posting lately.) I read news online and see headlines of celebrities who are pregnant. There seems to have been a lot of them announcing this past weekend. Or maybe it just seemed that way. I read an article yesterday about Jessica Capshaw expecting her 3rd. And she said she gets so busy she forgets she is 6 months pregnant! REALLY???? COME ON!!!! A FB friend (who I worked with several years ago) just gave birth to her 3rd (she is my age and I didn’t even know she was pregnant!). The chick from “Saved by the Bell” just announced she is expecting her 1st. A few of my other friends/bloggers announced they are pregnant. (I am ecstatic for all of you!! Please don’t take this the wrong way. I am sure you can understand.)
It just feels like all of a sudden I am being overloaded with pregnant women all around me. Which makes me feel like the odd woman out. I can’t even start my IVF when I wanted to, while others around me are starting their cycle. I know I have medical issues I need to take care of, but it is just so frustrating. At moments I feel alone with my sorrow.
But such is life and we move on. It is ok to have a bad day or a few bad days. We are human and we are allowed. You just can’t let it consume you and eat you up inside. As always, easier said than done. But one day at a time. I do enjoy reading the journey of my friends. Seeing their milestones, from the betas, to the 1st u/s to getting out of the 1st trimester. And instead of feeling sorry for myself, I try to just imagine myself reaching those milestones one day. I know it will happen! But as with life, there are bumps and sometimes we have to pull off the road and take a breather. The key is to get back on that road and keep moving forward. Keeping the faith and hope.
On a final note: Hubby and I went to see “The Artist” today. I have to say that was one of the best movies I have seen in a long time! I don’t say that lightly. I wasn’t sure how a silent film would be. I have seen a silent film before; the original “Phantom of the Opera” with Lon Chaney. I enjoyed that, but how often do we really get to see a silent film like they did in the 20s, on the big screen? And how would that translate in today’s world? I just cannot tell you how much I enjoyed it. I felt so much emotion throughout. The ups, the downs and every place in between. I actually was smiling at the end. And not one of those “sure I enjoyed it” kind of smiles. It was a “I thoroughly enjoyed that movie and feel so good now and want to tell all my friends to see it” kind of smiles, if you know what I mean.
So please, if you are on the fence or just don’t think you want to have to do a lot of reading while watching the movie, please go see it. There isn’t a lot to read. They don’t need words. The actors do such a great job emoting. They get their points across so effortlessly. The way it is written, the music . . . well I can see why it won Best Picture. So get off your butts and go see it already! 🙂
Thanks for reading!